“A good life is when you assume nothing, do more, need less, smile often, dream big, laugh a lot and realize how blessed you are for what you have"

A Dim Light & A Book

1. A dim light

After few weeks I’m still struggling to find the way out of the darkness I’ve gone through. Today, I found a dim light but still unsure whether the dim light is the one I need. SV was not around for me to ask and he cannot be disturbed this week. For now, nothing much I beseech except a clear mind, patience and strength to go on. I need His guiding light to lead me out of this dark tunnel. Anyway, thanks to all my friends for lending their hands especially for listening to the problems even though I think none of them really understand about my topic, sharing their opinions, giving their passwords or getting the journals that are not been subscribed by my university.


2. A book with 895 pages and 1 conclusion

I think my SV notice that I’m stuck for quite long in the third essay. There are few time he asked me about the third essay. Before SV left for his ___( I don’t know where he is now because he just said he will not be around and have a busy schedule) hr asked me to read a book entitled - History of ---------. It has 895 pages. Definitely it is not a day work to finish the reading. It is countless times I can fall asleep in between flipping the books. For somebody who loves number rather than words this is a challenging work. However, from the reading I’ve got one conclusion that the indicator chosen should be changed to dummies. It must be equal to one if it is applied the econometric analysis. After having a headache thinking on that matter before, I can’t believe it is as simple as that. Alhamdullillah even though I still can't find the clue, but at least for now a small fraction of the problems solved.

I just love this quote;

Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan jadi kenyataan

To those it may concern :.

You never know until you try. Have guts!!!


P/s Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

Distraction

I want to write this....



but been distracted by this


(my hphone was used to take the picture of this hphone. Sila simpati kat hphone ni, sape punya le ni?)

and this....



and also this






P/S alasan2 kenapa tesis tak siap lagi2. he3x

In the Middle of Darkness but For Once I Can Still Smile

It is already November. Time flies too fast. Last month I haven't done much progress in my thesis writing. In fact I was and I am in the middle of searching a solution for an issue arising from my writing. But still I can't find the answer and in the darkness to find the way out in order to proceed with my writing.

Today I met with my SV asked him how to solve the issue. He gave the guidelines but of course I still have to search for the solution. While discussing about another issue SV told me that I should done the calculation. For the first time answered I have done that. When he asked me to do another thing and for the second time I said I have done that also. Never in my life since I became his supervisee I can say that. Remember I wrote that my SV is super efficient and he is like a racing car trying to pull a bull cart.

For all this while when he asked "Z---- have you done this, have you finish that, have you manage to find what I asked @ how's your progress? My answer will be not yet, or I'll try to do it. Never once I can answer yes before he could asked.

But today for the first time I can smile not because I'm proud of myself but because the satisfaction I've done something without been directed. For person like me it is an achievement especially in the middle of trying the way out from this darkness.