No news is a good news

While taking an ablution a friend asked me - what a good news?. At the moment I have nothing to share or nothing to tell. But knowing what she meant I answered -sometimes no news is a good news. True enough, right?

Lifted Out Half Of The Burden

Alhamdulillah, finally  I lifted out half of the burden I was carrying on. I was urged to do that for so many times but never have confidence to do so. It was until I was utterly exhausted and a friend said there are only three possibilities i have to face. I mustered my strength and gut and made a decision. I did it at last, the thing I should have done since last year. Half of my heart and head feel really empty but another half feel so anxious. Well... hope for the best. For the time being, I have other burden of commitment to settle. Sigh... kerja yg tak pernah abis or am i the one who really enjoy working and be under pressure?

They say, I remind

 

 

                                                                  My student said

 

 

 

 

I remind them and myself

 

 

True Enough

Wow.... it is almost end of the second month of the year. Since this is my first posting of the year let me start the year by posting something nice/good which is undeniable true.

 

Time is like a flowing river, no water passes beneath your feet twice.

 

This is the last day of the year. It passes so fast until I don't know what I really do this year. Except there are more wrinkles and age signs not much achievement I have. When I want to fill the KPI form it took me so much time to stare at the form and thinking what have i done throughout the year. It was the same thing when a friend asked for my CV to apply for a research grant. It wasn't impressive at all and I realized how not productive I am this year.

When thinking it back, my life is really upside down throughout the year. There are more down part rather than upside part. There are so much thing to be juggling of. It is more busy, busy, busy but I don't really know what I have done actually. It makes me really tired, exhausted mentally and physically.  No.. no...Not that I'm not really grateful with what I have but there were times when I was out of my wit to think about things go around me. I remember my SV always said that I'm strong  but little did he or others know how fragile I am.

Unless I get 1 million dollar before 12.01 tonight (don't get me wrong I have no money problem so far Alhamdulillah)  or  I get a really GREAT news that makes me jump or scream outloud  and smile from ear to ear, I will say 2012 is not a really great year for me. But I should mention  it is not also a terrible year as i did a small things that makes myself proud of it. Oooo... I think I should blog this part later if only I have time to do so. Ha3x

Resolution? do I have resolution before.?Ha3x. but just hope another great year ahead. Insyaaallah

Got this from a friend, how to stay happy..

1. Live each day without anything negative to say or letting naysayers get in the way.
2. Welcome friends and family into your home especially if knowing they’ve been alone.
3. Experience different places and cultures. Find your own undiscovered treasures.
4. Listen, laugh, love, and live! Those are always some of the best things to give.
5. Forgive all hurt, pain, remorse, and shame. Carrying that stuff around provides no gain.
6. Enjoy meaningful relationships and social endeavors. Good memories last forever.
7. Start building the life you want to have in the future and each day you’ll get closer.
8. Respond to most things with a smile. That may confuse most people for a while.
9. Protect, promote, project, and provide all the love you have inside.
10. Appreciate just how far you’ve come and simply refuse to come undone.
11. Love and trust shouldn’t cost much. However, it is best when expressed freely.
12. Make your life a happy home! All that’s needed is a mind of your own.

I remember things I want to forget and forget things I want to remember

 Reasons for not blogging

1. Life has been upside down. My house is like tongkang pecah and my office is like kapal karam where papers are everywhere.
2. I'm utterly tired, extremely exhausted. I work from 8 to 7 everyday. Continue it again after Isyak
3. Overloaded with works and commitment. Eventhough i enjoy  working but life isn't really easy with too many commitments
4. Forgot my password to my  blog.  Ha3x.
I really forget things I want to remember but remember things I want to forget because I'm  overloaded with works and commitment that makes me utterly tired extremely exhausted and due to that my life is upside down.