24/7

I've been working like a dog for the couple of weeks. 24 hours a day & 7 days a week minus sleeping, eating, driving, chatting, taking bath and other needs. There is no weekend for me. It is tiring but this is my job and this is what I'm paid for. To my brother (whom I know is a hard fan reader of my blog) never think you work is hard and my work seems really easy coz I don't think you can survive with my world/work. Well... knowing you who loves outing, eating, sleeping, watching tv and socializing with friends my job is definitely not suitable for you. Believe me my brother, all jobs are not easy but how you make it looks and sounds easy is matter. "Life is not about surviving the storm but know how to dance in the rain". He3x. Of course there must be scarification done while doing your job. I've been limiting socializing with friends for lunch or teh tarik session. I've been spending all day in my work station or in my study room and hours in front of computer until deteriorating my eyesight. May be it sounds like I'm a very hard working PhD student but the truth is sometimes there are days without fruitful writing. There are days left with boredom and frustration. But still I believe it is a success if I can maintain the momentum to work.

The working of 24/7 started after I recovered from the fever, the momentum to start looking back at my work was a bit slow until I got a wake up alarm from my SV asking about my thesis. The feeling of guilty and responsibility to my work and SV definitely struck me. I need to do some progress in my work. Besides that, a progress report should be sent to my university and of course I don't want a bad report.

I'm blessed for been given who is really concern about the progress, sharp, smart and hardworking. The unfortunate part he got me as a supervisee who is a bit slow or may be far to slow from his expectation. When I haven't finish my first essay he already asked to see him to discuss for the third essay. There were times when he asked me to do 3 things the only thing I can manage to do sometimes only one. There were times when I have to meet him in the morning but all I can do before meeting him just sleeping without can scrutinizing my work. I always making a joke with friends, my SV just like a racing car trying to pull a bull cart.

The working sometimes beyond my capability but I should try my best. There is time I find I'm up to my limit and I need to stop where ever I have finished and just show whatever I've done. I'm amaze with friends who can stay up to 3 am in the faculty and do their work. To me their are few things which I cannot compromise especially my health and my safety so I won't do that or maybe I'm not just strong/hardworking/persistence enough to do that.

A Week: Neither Reading Nor Writing

Last week, I coincidentally met with my SV during a function in Putrajaya. It is not easy to meet him in the campus lately. A few appointments and meetings with him were cancelled due to his busy schedule. It is understandable as he is attached with other 4 leading organizations in the country. When he saw me there, he asked whether I have anything to discuss and I took that opportunity. Luckily I brought all the materials which I thought I was going to look at it if I was bored with the talk.

We discussed during lunch hour break and I was really satisfied with his comments and recommendations to my writing. He gave me due date to finish my first essay. Looking at the feedback and conteng2 on my writing made me in really high spirit and promised to finish it as soon as possible. The next meeting with him was scheduled to be next week.

However, the next day after the meeting I went back to kampung as I promised my father. Been in my father's house definitely hindered me from touching my books/computer. Too many entertainments in that house; siblings chit chat, teasing nephews and nieces, foods and etc. When I went back to my house I was still in the full spirit to make corrections on my writing and hopefully can proceed to the second essay but unfortunately I was then down with fever and bad headache. I couldn't even read the articles far from looking at my computer. The only thing I can do was becoming a sleeping beauty, only wake up for the necessaries.

In a week neither reading and nor writing have been done and I don't know what progress should I show to my SV next week. Totally no progress at all. huhuhu. Looking on the other side, eventhough I didn't finish my work due to the fever but I was losing 2 kg due to the dehydration during my fever and my sister thought I was so lucky that I don't to work out to lose that much kilos. funny huh ?!. huhuhu