I've been working like a dog for the couple of weeks. 24 hours a day & 7 days a week minus sleeping, eating, driving, chatting, taking bath and other needs. There is no weekend for me. It is tiring but this is my job and this is what I'm paid for. To my brother (whom I know is a hard fan reader of my blog) never think you work is hard and my work seems really easy coz I don't think you can survive with my world/work. Well... knowing you who loves outing, eating, sleeping, watching tv and socializing with friends my job is definitely not suitable for you. Believe me my brother, all jobs are not easy but how you make it looks and sounds easy is matter. "Life is not about surviving the storm but know how to dance in the rain". He3x. Of course there must be scarification done while doing your job. I've been limiting socializing with friends for lunch or teh tarik session. I've been spending all day in my work station or in my study room and hours in front of computer until deteriorating my eyesight. May be it sounds like I'm a very hard working PhD student but the truth is sometimes there are days without fruitful writing. There are days left with boredom and frustration. But still I believe it is a success if I can maintain the momentum to work.
The working of 24/7 started after I recovered from the fever, the momentum to start looking back at my work was a bit slow until I got a wake up alarm from my SV asking about my thesis. The feeling of guilty and responsibility to my work and SV definitely struck me. I need to do some progress in my work. Besides that, a progress report should be sent to my university and of course I don't want a bad report.
I'm blessed for been given who is really concern about the progress, sharp, smart and hardworking. The unfortunate part he got me as a supervisee who is a bit slow or may be far to slow from his expectation. When I haven't finish my first essay he already asked to see him to discuss for the third essay. There were times when he asked me to do 3 things the only thing I can manage to do sometimes only one. There were times when I have to meet him in the morning but all I can do before meeting him just sleeping without can scrutinizing my work. I always making a joke with friends, my SV just like a racing car trying to pull a bull cart.
The working sometimes beyond my capability but I should try my best. There is time I find I'm up to my limit and I need to stop where ever I have finished and just show whatever I've done. I'm amaze with friends who can stay up to 3 am in the faculty and do their work. To me their are few things which I cannot compromise especially my health and my safety so I won't do that or maybe I'm not just strong/hardworking/persistence enough to do that.
3 comments:
Dear Azuriy, Assalamua'laikum,
I always amaze/admire/respect your spirit in persuing and completing your PhD study. It is the spirit you have that could make you "wake up" and back on track. Eventhough you feel lonely sometimes during your study life but, that physically being alone is actually make you really close to your true 'friend/companion' i.e. Allah (hope you really keep this in mind). Your ikhlas doa to him and your ikhlas intention of furthering your study that make you able to continue with the 'life' you are going through. So keep 'communicating' to your true friend.
Everything we do should be "be our selve" with the guidance of our knowledge. Only the person him/her self know his/her limit in doing something. I think you are doing Sis. Keep it up and always make your self motivated.
To be continued insyaAllah. Keep smiling Sis, I-lal-li-qa' was-sa-la-mah
zu,
Jangan berputus asa apabila menghadapi kesusahan kerana titisan hujan yang jernih juga berasal daripada awan yang gelap.
Chaiyok!
Assalamua'laikum, Dear Azuriy,
This is to share with you and others who might visit this blog. I always read this when I feel 'down' or some sort of tired with this world. Read on....
....An elderly woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole, which she carried across her neck. One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water, at the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do.
After 2 years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house." The old woman smiled, "Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?" "That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house."
From this story, I learn that:
1. Don't try to be a perfectionist as we may forget little things that can bring smile in life.
2. Don't compare our life with others as they may have tons of money but lack of love or may have an excellent career but no time for family.... remember old folks saying that the grass is not always greener on the other side.
3. Do believe that our flaws and cracks may be the greatest gift of all if we know the right way to manipulate it.
4. Also try to look at the good side of the other person... don’t always see only the bad. remember the Malay's proverb, " Tak kenal maka tak cinta” , and “Hanya jauhari yg mengenal manikam”.
5. Don't be snoobish of what we had... the most important thing is what we feel. Are we happy or not??? Life is short!
Sis, each of us cannot escape from cracks and flaws. These things that actually make us unique and different from each other, and thus creates wonderful and interesting life we share together. Your entry this time (24/7), really portrays your blog's title;..sweet & sweat as a PhD student..however, please don't hack the wall with your head coz it can make you get the other PhD earlier than the one you persue..(Permanent head Damage)..He3x
Keep smiling Sis. I-lal-li-qa' was-sa-la-mah.
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