In the Middle of Darkness but For Once I Can Still Smile

It is already November. Time flies too fast. Last month I haven't done much progress in my thesis writing. In fact I was and I am in the middle of searching a solution for an issue arising from my writing. But still I can't find the answer and in the darkness to find the way out in order to proceed with my writing.

Today I met with my SV asked him how to solve the issue. He gave the guidelines but of course I still have to search for the solution. While discussing about another issue SV told me that I should done the calculation. For the first time answered I have done that. When he asked me to do another thing and for the second time I said I have done that also. Never in my life since I became his supervisee I can say that. Remember I wrote that my SV is super efficient and he is like a racing car trying to pull a bull cart.

For all this while when he asked "Z---- have you done this, have you finish that, have you manage to find what I asked @ how's your progress? My answer will be not yet, or I'll try to do it. Never once I can answer yes before he could asked.

But today for the first time I can smile not because I'm proud of myself but because the satisfaction I've done something without been directed. For person like me it is an achievement especially in the middle of trying the way out from this darkness.