I want to talk about it but I cannot blog it explicitly. There are things which are you have to keep for yourself. No, no this is not regarding my Phd. Not at all!
10 years ago I got an opportunity but I blew it away. I regret for my decision and action that time. I know it is not good to say if only I let go my egoism that time..., things might changed. I blame solely myself for that but still believe things happen for a reason. So I keep consoling myself that time I was just immature young woman and full of emotions.I keep reminding; Mistake is just a mistake.
But it didn't happen only once, I got another opportunity and blew it again. This is not a mistake, this is definitely a stupidity. Just another failure in my life
Lesson learned. After so many years of waiting I got another opportunity. I'm really happy but put extra cautious on it. Praying hard that I won't take a wrong step, make unwise decision and action. I don't want to let go this opportunity. Unfortunately things didn't happen as planned. It doesn't work out. I fail to keep it for me. This time I don't blame myself anymore. I put all my effort to get it but I can't control things that are not belong to me. God might have a better plan for me and replace with a better opportunity. Truly I'm sad and utterly frustrated. I keep reminding myself jgn terlampau berharap because Sometimes There are Things Which are Not Meant to Be Yours.
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Dear Azuriy, Assalamua'laikum,
Please always remember that you are not the only one having/facing that kind of situation in this life. I believe that what you are doing to handle the situation is seems alright after learning few lessons one after another. I'm really happy when I noticed you never blame Allah and keep "sangka baik" to HIM. Allah knows us best. Maybe we are not as strong as we thought, so Allah keep us away from the problem/situation that could ruin ourselves,because HE knows best, since we also always praying for HIS protection as HE is the best manager of our life.
Think about this; There are things which are not meant to be ours, so don't border much. Let concentrate and upgrade our love and care to those are really ours...our self, our family and the most important one, our Allah & Rasulullah
Well Sis, I can just write to comfort you. I'm also worry if I myself couldn't do what I wrote here. May Allah bless all of us in this life and hereafter.
Keep smiling Sis, this is the way we show our "redho" and "syukur" since we are still alive and still have chance to correct ourselves.
Ilalliqa' wassalamah
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