Time is like a flowing river, no water passes beneath your feet twice.

 

This is the last day of the year. It passes so fast until I don't know what I really do this year. Except there are more wrinkles and age signs not much achievement I have. When I want to fill the KPI form it took me so much time to stare at the form and thinking what have i done throughout the year. It was the same thing when a friend asked for my CV to apply for a research grant. It wasn't impressive at all and I realized how not productive I am this year.

When thinking it back, my life is really upside down throughout the year. There are more down part rather than upside part. There are so much thing to be juggling of. It is more busy, busy, busy but I don't really know what I have done actually. It makes me really tired, exhausted mentally and physically.  No.. no...Not that I'm not really grateful with what I have but there were times when I was out of my wit to think about things go around me. I remember my SV always said that I'm strong  but little did he or others know how fragile I am.

Unless I get 1 million dollar before 12.01 tonight (don't get me wrong I have no money problem so far Alhamdulillah)  or  I get a really GREAT news that makes me jump or scream outloud  and smile from ear to ear, I will say 2012 is not a really great year for me. But I should mention  it is not also a terrible year as i did a small things that makes myself proud of it. Oooo... I think I should blog this part later if only I have time to do so. Ha3x

Resolution? do I have resolution before.?Ha3x. but just hope another great year ahead. Insyaaallah

Got this from a friend, how to stay happy..

1. Live each day without anything negative to say or letting naysayers get in the way.
2. Welcome friends and family into your home especially if knowing they’ve been alone.
3. Experience different places and cultures. Find your own undiscovered treasures.
4. Listen, laugh, love, and live! Those are always some of the best things to give.
5. Forgive all hurt, pain, remorse, and shame. Carrying that stuff around provides no gain.
6. Enjoy meaningful relationships and social endeavors. Good memories last forever.
7. Start building the life you want to have in the future and each day you’ll get closer.
8. Respond to most things with a smile. That may confuse most people for a while.
9. Protect, promote, project, and provide all the love you have inside.
10. Appreciate just how far you’ve come and simply refuse to come undone.
11. Love and trust shouldn’t cost much. However, it is best when expressed freely.
12. Make your life a happy home! All that’s needed is a mind of your own.

I remember things I want to forget and forget things I want to remember

 Reasons for not blogging

1. Life has been upside down. My house is like tongkang pecah and my office is like kapal karam where papers are everywhere.
2. I'm utterly tired, extremely exhausted. I work from 8 to 7 everyday. Continue it again after Isyak
3. Overloaded with works and commitment. Eventhough i enjoy  working but life isn't really easy with too many commitments
4. Forgot my password to my  blog.  Ha3x.
I really forget things I want to remember but remember things I want to forget because I'm  overloaded with works and commitment that makes me utterly tired extremely exhausted and due to that my life is upside down.

Happy as a Bee

Feeling so happy for a small achievement. Alhamdulillah. Small but too significant. Because I'm really happy just want to share some pictures I have taken few months ago.

Bad Day

Jokes are half meant while promises are half lies

Went through a bad day;

1. Waiting in the post office and Tabung haji for three hours which really a test of my patience

2. Reply a sms to a friend  thought i was making a joke but unfortunately it was not well accepted. Somebody is sulking. Huhuhu or should I say hahaha. Well sms sometimes does not convey a true feeling or meaning and that is why I always make a call when it comes something important.

3. Got a phone call from somebody unknown. He started to scold me & with some maki hamun. I was really speechless but I think he got a wrong phone number. Even though I think he physco but my whole day is already ruin by his words.

Maaf

Seseorang yang tidak pernah melakukan kesalahan tidak akan tahu meminta maaf - unknown


Life is been so hectic lately. There are lot of things to write but time doesn't really permit. I know I have written before my brother said when you have a short of time it means you have a lot of sins. So please forgive me for everything.I know, I know,  it is already half of Syawal but still I want to wish Selamat Hari raya & Maaf Zahir Batin.

So Sweeeet

I read in the news paper where my sister and her family were interviewed about the sembahyang terawikh. What give me a really big smile is the answer given by my 8 years old nephew.

From the newspaper;

Bagi Meor Ahmad Hazieq, dia mengaku hanya melaksanakan solat tarawih lapan rakaat berbanding 20 rakaat yang dilakukan pihak masjid tersebut.


"Saya berhenti selepas lapan rakaat kerana terasa penat. Kemudian selepas itu, saya hanya duduk di belakang sambil melihat orang ramai. Tahun ini, saya harap dapat menunaikan solat tarawih setiap hari sepanjang Ramadan," ujarnya yang bersyukur kerana mempunyai ibu bapa yang prihatin terhadap aspek pendidikan agama kepada anak-anak.

Doesn't it sweet? Even though sometimes I doubt whether it is his answer or it is well written by the journalist. Anyhow it gives me a big smile and sejuk hati mak sedara. ha3x

My Ramadhan

1. It is a bless to have another Ramadhan.
2. I'm busy as usual
3. I'm more energetic than last Ramadhan Alhamdulillah
4. I don't know how people have so much energy to be in the shopping complex during this month because I don't have much energy in it.
5. I have a prolong cough. It distracted me while doing my tarawikh. According to my sister's bibik it is 100 days cough. Doctor didn't say anything except giving me cough pills.
6.I've gone through few glitches in this month but i believe it just tests of patience.
7.Have a bless Ramadhan everyone.

27/6

I was signing a paper when I asked an officer what is the date today. This is normal you are signing a paper you forgot the date, when people were infront of you just asked. When I saw the date today under my signature, I knew the date is significant to me but I couldn't recall anything.It was until a few minutes I realized on this date, I will never forget for all my life. Subhanallah it has been 23 years. How time flies.

I don't  think this memories will fade away. On this day,  I was  a girl who cried along the way from JB to meet her mother for the last time. It was the saddest day, the saddest moment and the longest second I had in all my life.

The time she already left me is  more than the she was with me but I still remember vividly the love and care she gave. She might not be a perfect but never I want to complain anything about her as she was enough a good mother to me. She was my quran teacher who thought me from alif ba taa until I can recite the quran, She was the one who sew my first telekung,  hold my hand  walk with me to the surau. She was the one who taught me if you go to any mosque sadaqah some  of my money to the mosque, the advice I never forget. There too much thing i want to talk about her but sometimes it is better to keep as memories to myself.

Al fatihah to arwah mak - May Allah bless your soul and reward you with jannah

I wish I can write more but this is my status for now ;

Steady as a clock, busy as a bee, and still cheerful as a cricket

Jeju: A Dream Comes True

If you ever read my previous posting last year. My wish had been granted. I went to Jeju less than a year I dreamed of it. I used to dream with a friend about Jeju but I think she didn't dare to take a risk going with me. Ha3x. I know sometimes i have to dream alone follow my heart and take whatever opportunity comes to me. I maybe very lucky when my brother are so supportive about it. He used to say do it now because you are not going to do it when you are getting older. When the opportunity came, I just said yes without too much thinking. Jeju is splendidly and mesmerizingly beautiful. I don't think words and pictures can fully describe it. We explore using rental car by ourselves.

 I couldn't find a mosque however i managed to go to small Islamic center in Jeju city. I t was a blessed to meet, chat and having dinner cooked by Prof K - a Korean Muslim. Listening to his story made me insaf how lucky I am.

 The most unbelievable thing I did in Jeju is hiking the famous Mount Halla. Never I dream to do it for all my life  (panjat bukit pun tak pernah). For those who used to mountain hiking it maybe easy but as for me there are many times while hiking I regret for doing it and just want to turn back. I didn't do any research about it. If I knew it takes about 4-5 hours to the peak i'll definitely won't do it from the start. Thank goodness I didn't do the research so i didn't know the situation and I did it thinking it was a really easy hiking. For a person like it wasn't easy at all. The Koreans were really helpful throughout the hiking, they gave me mineral water and words of support. At least doing something i never did I can tell others i  already hiked the mount halla  and got a certificate and medal. The rest of the story let me keep it to myself.

Here are some of the pictures of jeju

Utterly Tired

I'm utterly tired mentally and physically. At this moment feel like my brain is malfunction. Looking at the journal is just like looking at a blank paper. Got a sms from a lecturer in U*M - Agi idup agi ngelaban. How sweet is that?

Sharing is Caring

I have a hectic life, juggling between too many things.Sometimes I do feel time goes too fast and 24 hours are not enough for me. Remember my brother said org yg tak cukup masa ni orang banyak dosa. Whether it is a joke, truth or reminder I'm not sure. Maybe memang saya banyak dosa.

Now I'm studying econometrics which I thought it just a cinch. But things change, method and techniques for analysing change so thus the software in the market. It is not an easy task anymore. I think econometrics is not my kacang anymore. Thus, it slower my works.

Found this in Richard Branson's blog and just want to share it.

To all the doubters and individuals who believe we can’t change I ask this:
When a child stumbles with their first steps, should we tell them to stop trying?
When a student does poorly on their first test, should we tell them to stop studying?
When a teen has their heart broken for the first time, should we tell them to stop loving?
When an adult loses their first job, should we tell them to stop working?
When an entrepreneur fails at their first attempt, should we tell them to stop attempting?
When a senior gets their first serious illness, should we tell them to stop living?

Random Thoughts in the New Year

1. It is almost half of the first month of 2012. How time flies.

2. I'm fully occupied with my commitment. Juggling between new commitment and the continuous commitment. For now my brain is fully utilzed. Sometimes my brain feels like it is overloaded and started to think can somebody please think for me.

3. I believe in the power of doa. When you have no one to turn to or understand you, or your brain stop thinking or you have a mountain of problems. Pray with sincerity, full of humble and hope and believe Allah will answer your prayer. Believe it.

4. There will be always bless in disguise in everything that happen. So accept it with full heart.

5. A friend pat on my back said that the environment change so does the people. I always assume people whom I met today is same person I met years ago. But I'm totally wrong. I might change myself without realizing it. There is an old saying I said "The one constant thing in life is change".So, we must be prepared for any changes in our lives.

6. Sometimes sweet memories become bitter memories and bitter memories become sweet memories.

7. I'm waiting for somebody to teach me a simple calculation. But it feels like waiting for ages. I think I need to increase my degree of patience.

8. I was called bodoh by a lorry driver when I was mistakenly drive in one way street in a small town. Should I be sad or should i smile and said padan muka to myself?